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Hong Kong~

2004-12-22T22:07:00.000+08:00

I'm back and i'm sorry for not updating my blog. Well it has been a wonderful month for me and i bet the rest of u guys are as well ^.^

My last entry is about my band fest and it has ended two weeks ago. Really miss playing with all of my Band C members (Liszt RocK) it's a wonderful experience to see so many great musician around exchanging what they learn and experience :) thanks to of you. it was a very fruitful band fest ;)

Everything was splendid for the past few weeks. Everything seemed so unreal and fantasy hahaa... ;) anyway tomorrow morning i flying off to Hong Kong for christmas and will be back on sunday. well.. i'm sure i will head straight for those famous Tim Sum over there hahaa.. :D My hotel is located at Tism Sha Tsui where there are many wonderful food stall there :P Got to take a ferry from hong kong island over to kowloon where tism sha tsui will be at. Tomorrow night i will visit the victorial peak to view the Hong Kong Scenary ;) Splendid ;)

well well well.. got to buy some christmas present for my friend as well .. i'm sure that i gonna do lots of shopping ;) hee hee.. Anyway i need to turn in soon. need to wake up early tomorrow morning at 5 to get ready and leave the house at six to airport ;) need to check in at 7AM :S it extreme early for Jeff lor... hahaha.... anyway have a great christmas and take care :) To my bro... hope u will have a wonderful Xmas this year... Jia You.~ muack~ ....

Current Mood: Excited !! ^.^

Well Here are some pic that i took on the last day of my band fest. enjoy yo ;)

This is part of my college band mate :)

this girl Tiffany from my festival band (Liszt) she's a tenor sax player from VJC. cool~ ^.^

Sharon.. my college flutist. She's a damn powerful player. She have practice very hard for this band fest leh ;)

Michele.. Came to PJC from River Valley high. no doubt she's a very strong and good player. Always have great fun and chat with her in band as she sat beside me ;)

Last of all, My dearest 'GF' hahaha... she very sexy right!~ lolx. if u saw her on the street make sure u shout SEXY hor.. or else i beat u lolx.. she's a damn powerful saxophonist and of course someone that make me laugh non-stop. haha..a very pro 'distractor' wahaha..

Phantom Of The Opera

2004-12-18T13:05:00.000+08:00

Highly recommended show from me ;) better catch it this coming week ;) FIrst ever come onto the big screen

sec SCh Band Camp

2004-12-01T01:18:00.000+08:00

Just got back not long ago from my sec sch. My sec sch band hold a band camp since monday and i was with them since yesterday and was very tired right now.

Well... there's lots of things that seem to be amiss somewhere in the band now. The spirit isn't there and our band motto "unisono" doesn't seem to be there anymore. pretty sad. Next year, they going to have their concert as well as the SYF (singapore youth festival). All the best to you guys.

during this two days in my sec sch, i brought along my french horn over to practice my pieces for this coming band festival. It's not easy for me at all but i practice hard through the night when the rest are sleeping. Tomorrow is the first day of band festival and i hope that i won't sound like 'shit'~~ alright... good nite everyone , got to turn in. it's going to be another long and tiring day for me tomorrow. ^.^

My GreAsTesT OpPpneNt Is MySeLf~

Band Band BAnd~

2004-11-28T23:50:00.000+08:00

Another month is approaching. On the coming 4th of Dec will be the JC band festival. Have been practicing very hard for this coming band fest. but there's still a little here and there for me to polish up.

Tomorrow going to mark the very first day of the week and i going to start busy from tomorrow all the way till saturday. Tomorrow got to report to M.I to appeal for a place in the second year. Hope it will go well :) after then will need to head back to my sec sch band to discuss on next year end of jan concert. the following day tuesday will be the same as well. Wednesday will gonna be the first training and masterclass for the band festival. I'm pretty excited to see how the rest of my section member plays. Hm... i have two cjc girl, one ACjc girl, one Ajc girl, one Tpjc girl and a Njc guy. hmm.. interesting isn't it~! well hope it will turn out to be a fun and nice band ;P

well going to stress from tomorrow onward .. Turning in right now... ~! WAIT a SECOND, i have got a few sentence to share with u guys which made me think for so long and realize how true it is in so many many ppl life.... is quoted from this book titled "Tuesday With Morris" ....

"So many people walk with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to the community around you, and devote yourself on creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

GooD NighT~ ^.^

2004-11-28T22:57:00.000+08:00

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I'm Back

2004-11-22T14:35:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys....! Two weeks ago, i'm down with gastric. Alot of things happened for the past two weeks but i just don't wanna say it anymore.

I'm really very glad that i have a bro that able to share my feeling with. The past two week isn't doing very good for me but i'm lucky that my bro pull me out from it. Thanks bro ;) REcently, have been pretty busy with my band festival. Well, This band festival will be held on the 4th of december at ntu.I'm in Band C and the song was really tough even my school band conductress was shocked that we are playing pieces like Orient Express by philip sparke and Firestorm by Stephen Bulla which required lots of practice. I was kinda stress with the piece firestorm but if others can play it , i don't think it gonna be a problem for me as well ;P i will practice hard especially those running notes...... ^.^ alright that's all for today .... will start updating ;P

We Don't Live In A World Of Reality, We Live In A World Of Perceptions ...

A new chapter

2004-11-08T14:18:00.000+08:00

Every end of a chapter, spark off another new chapter in life. Now, what past is past and here's my brand new chapter of life.

weekend had passed and didn't really do much during the weekend. Was out with my brother, Kenneth, over the weekends and we didn't really do much. We hang around places like orchard, Boon Lay and the park near kenneth house. I would like to say something here to kenneth,

Bro,
I'm very glad to have you around especially during time where i really have silly thoughts~ Though u always complain saying that i didn't open out my feeling at all to everyone and even you, i still think among everyone out there i know, you still able to be there for me. You might not know me much but i know u will just keep quiet and be there for me, sitting at the park looking up the sky , thinking of those days when we laugh and tease at each other. I smile to myself when i recap about the days in sec sch. Now, we are walking on a different route in life but i really appreciaite being with you all the while. Thanks goodness that i have such a wonderful brother. :) Haha... yeah many ppl always ask whether we're couple and do i have feeling for him or not .. i will say yes i have feeling for him ... those brotherhood's feeling can? ;P i have my own cup of tea and yeah kenneth isn't but i treat him much more special than my cup of tea.. see brother! i treat you so special :P *hug*

Just woke up not long ago and i felt a sharp pain at my calve. I think i didn't do much stretching last night before i jogged. Last night, went to jog from my place and round my area all the way till jurong point. When i reached jurong point was pretty tired but hahaa kenneth was busy chatting with his colleague so he called me to run another round. This time when i start to jog another small round , my heart start to hurt .. hmm don't really know why but still i jog slowly and endure through :) Very satisfy after the run it about three time of my school canal run and i manage to finish like in 40 mins :)

alright i gonna stop here, have to meet my brother to gym now :) take care everyone and have a great week ahead

Current Mood: Happy ^.-

Happiness does not depend on the outward things, but on the way we see them (,")

stronger~!

2004-11-06T01:54:00.000+08:00

It late in the night and it's still drizzling. Walked back with my bandmate Farhan from Jurong Point just now after dinner with Dean, Norman and Farhan. It was a great dinner where again, we chatted over lots of issue ;)

I didn't went for my exam today cos somehow i felt that it pointless and furthermore i not in any mood to go for it. Went for a swim before i go for my band practice and see Mrs Chan(my CT). Had quite a long session with mrs chan and here what i wanna tell you, mrs chan.... :)

Mrs chan, i'm happy to have you as my CT but i'm just so sad that you can't teach. Well, i'm not going to say anything about your teaching over here just wanna tell you sorry that most of us had given you so much trouble that u have to cover up for us. You care alot for our class but i know we disappoint you. Once again sorry. I'm very glad on how worried you are when u saw those wound on my hand, thanks... i promise u that i won't do it again... thanks so much mrs chan .. i will plan for my future and don't need to worry.

Back to band~ I'm so happy to know that i'm able to perform for this coming band fest and concert next year. Thanks elyse (F-----) hahaha.... ;P Sight-read a few new pieces today as well as the set piece for next year SYF'05 but so sad that i can't perform with them.. hai...:( but never mind ... Dean can do it one .... jia you yo..~! must clinch a gold medal next year ;) Pretty like this new pieve named inuyashi but just don't know why i got tired easily today.. hm .. think this coming concert going to be a very tiring concert :S haha... yaya not fogetting my two senior that came in today .. they are the first batch who played a very challenging piece for their Competition that year .. hmm.. i was very excited to see how good they are but to my surprise they ain't to my expectation.. lolx :P i think dean and i can do a much much better job ^.^ well well well.. think i'm almost back to myself again... hoping for the next band practice... and class outing soon...:) take care everyone and of course thanks for all those msg that u guys tagged... :) good nite...

Current Mood: CHeerful ^.^

The Art of living lies less in eliminating our troubles than in growing with them ;)

2004-11-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

this blog have been so great.. i never let out so much things in my life.. nice ..~! love this blog so much..~!!!!!!! hope whoever that is reading my blog do enjoy reading it despite of my language.~!

Love,
Jeff Li Guoming

Sorry~

2004-11-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

Today marks the lowest point of my life! The sky started pouring when i sat helplessly in school with jun jie and faizal. I'm feeling very lost knowing what my outcome is.....
Mr Kwek .. thanks for being so 'kind' to say "you better go ns .. u are too old!!" I was hoping that u could help me but u disappoint me... u left me now crying in my room, holding a scissor cutting my hands.... !!! i hate you..~~~~ Yes i cut my hand but i have no idea why i feel nothing... why ? Just now in school , i also can't understand why i didn't cry when i realize i got kicked out... i still can smile with jun jie and faizal but in me i feel nothing... a kind of emptiness..~!!!!
i try all my way to get myself retain but the clerk and mr kwek say no and ask me to leave to ns. Well thanks for being so encouraging. I find math tutor Miss Seah to plead her on allowing me to perform the coming concert with the band as well as to let me perform with dean again.... ~~>.<~~ Miss seah told me she will help me but she can't confirm with me.. i hope i can perform with u guys one more time .. pls..
Dean i know u are very sad when i told u that i leaving... i'm sad as well... just now when julaiha msn me , i cried...... i really cried real hard... and for that instance, my heart started aching..... and i taste that bitterness of my tears :( I'll see you tomorrow in band ... hopefully i won't cry..~!! and pls.. i also dun want to see you cry.... not just you and julaiha pls... dun ...~!!!!!

my hand start feeling hot suddenly ... didn't realize there's some blood .. haha... i think i'm getting a little crazy .... do u know today while heading back....i stand at the mrt platform staring hard at the track. Thinking how painful is it to be drag by train a few metre away...!!!! But it kill one off pretty quick i think...~! hai..~~~~ everything are so uncertain now.. i can't pick up anyone call now.. i feel so lost on talking to anyone ... i dun want.. ~! hai... !!! sorry guys....~!!!!

Current mood: Lost~! @_@

the end of my day

2004-11-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

Everything seemed so dark infront of me. I really dun know what to do now. Everything start to collapse on me, making me so stressful and hard to breathe......

After hearing what some of my classmate said about overage in college. I rushed to the office and waited for my principal to ask him about whether i will be retained or kicked out. Mr Quek(my principal) is a very good principal, he says he won't kick anyone out as long as he's not a retainee before. BUT, when he knows that i'm 19 this year, he gave me that disappointing look. He said he can't confirm with me anything right now as he's admin staff all went back. He will get back to me again tomorrow morning. I'm very scare... very scare... there's this cold in my bone .. in my marrow...cold of fear and despair.....~~~~~ Why should the government set an age cap for JC education. Everyone should be given a fair chance of repeating once, why am i the exceptional. Does age really that serious!!!! Hai~ Everything will be revealed tomorrow and chance of i leaving the college is very HIGH .... Pls.....save me..... ~~~>.<~~~~

Here, i would like to say something if i really get expelled from college. First of all to my Section , French Horn. This year the batch suppose to be big but most of them prefer not to join the band back. Sad to say that there's only two french horn player ( Dean & me ). Dean.... it kinda sad to have only two horn player but i'm very proud of you. You are a good player but i'm sorry to leave u. I enjoy playing side by side during band with you. Somehow u are like my buddy. Sorry i didn't do much as a sectional leader .. sorry! hope u dun mind ~~ i might not turn up for band pract this friday once i know i got kicked out of college but i do have a gift for u which will be handed over to someone and he will pass it to you. This gift isn't very great but it a token for you to tell you that i appreciatie the band pract we have together though it's short , i enjoy it... Do well for next year SYF and concert..~~~ all the best *hug*

Secondly, to my classmate.... some of u got promoted .. well congrat to you all and study hard for next year A level. Well for the two that sitting for retest, study hard now and get urself promoted, dun end up like me , no hope anymore~! hai...~ well for those that got retain... pls pls pls.... study hard next year and remember u all have the advantage as you have the concept of what is being taught in J1 ... all the best :)

Lastly, to my family. Yes i failed... i failed horribly. I'm extreme sorry. Well, you all care little or none of my study and just hope that i can pass my exam. I bet u all never feel how stress ur son is here right now. I'm very stress.. stress to the extent of ending my life, can i? sorry aunt, i upset you.. sorry.... i'm useless..... i can't prove those bitches wrong.... i'm sorry... i dun mean to disappoint you but i was given no choice due to my age.. yes i blame myself not being hard working for the first semester and play around and brought myself to such state that i left with nothing...~~~~~ hai..~~~~~~ I don't feel like updating my blog anymore from tomorrow onward... if u see me updating my blog that mean i'm not kick out but...... but....... hai~~~~~ good nite~

Current Mood: sucide??

PJCSB..... I will miss you all especially DEAN~~~~~~>.<~~~~~~~

My sis 21st birhtday party

2004-10-29T11:15:00.000+08:00

Well i actually had done with my lastest entry but this fucking system screw it up~! while publishing it just stop and give me a blank page. click refresh and everything is gone~! arr.~! alright my lastest entry suppose to be a long one but hai.. i'm too lazy to write out what i wrote just now so i gonna brifly say what i had done for the past two days since my last entry on tuesday :S

I was out in chalet on wednesday and thursday to celebrate my sister 21st birthday. I felt extremely happy for her as she's now a grown up girl able to do lots of things and i hope soon i'm able to attend her wedding. Sis i'm proud of u very proud of u. i'm thankful that i have u in my life and glad u accepted me for what i am. Happiness is the most important things in life , i hope u have urs. Having u as my sister really made me feel so lucky able to share my problem in relationship and many more. Jie~ i'm always here, you are my first person in my priority list. Stay happy , never like to see u frown never.. never.... happy 21st birthday..~!

the birthday party was a great one and certainly i can see my sister was really happy in her new hairdo and dress :) jie u are the most beautiful girl i ever see... No lie~! ^.^ Thought the buffet wasn't very well done, i still ate alot.. hahaa.;P was feeling really sinful that night eating so much. Follow on we played blackjack and :( i lost a few buck.. hee hee but never mind just once awhile .. the night went off so swiftly and sun is about to rise. didn't sleep at all for the last night in the chalet and was very tired next day in school.

Thursday morning , six thirty, i threw everything into my bag and rush home with my brother kenneth who came for my sister party as well. Had a quick shower , hoping to be in time for lesson today but zhan Li my classmate called up and asked whether wanna slack with him at Lot1 mac. so since lesson hasn't been much constructive nowadays , i agreeed and we slacked and chatted till twelve plus where Benedict (my other classmate) came and we went to school together with giffari later. it was two in the afternoon when we reached school and all of us was doing our oral presentation. School lesson ended around half past four and i packed up my stuff and went for my band practice. Most band member wasn't there so we are told to do our sectional practice. Hm.. Miss chan , our band conductress wasn't happy at all today. Heard she was very unhappy that during sectional practice certain section actually combined Ithaca and after the chemistry make-up lecture , most of the band member never came back instead they went back :( Sight-read two new piece that wasn't nice at all.. hm... well still i love my band so much...~! :) Releasing of result is coming this monday, everyone started to get realyl worry especially me. I really dun hope to get kick out from the college . Pls let me stay in school~! Had dinner at Lot 1 ajisen (a japanese ramen restaurant) with five of my band mate(farhan, norman, Dean, Clement and Giffari). We got the same seat as last time and norman and i also ordered the same ramen as last time. Had a great time with my bandmate laughing and joking as well as some gossipping wahaha...;P after then we played a spastic and disgusting game that was started off by giffari. He concocted a bowl of mixture with lots of chili oil, mayo, teriyaki sauce and lots of other left over food. Eek.~! The game was played this way where one of us think of a no. and whoever that hit the correct no. will have the 'privilage' to taste the concoction. lolx~! The First lucky person was Dean haha... he tasted a cabbage that was soak in those mixture and eek... the disgusted expression was written all over his face.. hahaa..;P next was norman haha.. who tasted the prawn head, and the prawn head have to be dipped into a bowl of mixture worse the mixture was added with paiku thayt clement leftover :S hahaa... The last lucky guy was Clement , haha.. and i think he's the worse among all, he was told to drink a scoop of the mixture... Yuck~! BUT i was amazed that he said it tasted nice.. lolx..

After then , all of us headed home with some ex-member and well.. i really have a enjoyable dinner and band practice. Dean who is my buddy in band, i really hope this isn't the last dinner or farewell dinner fo me.. i hope i would be able to stay on in school and not kick out. today was the last band practice of the month. i hope i will be back for next practice.. pls pls.. everyone pray hard for me... pray hard for me... I love all u guys in my band... take care .....~!

when i reached home , i was really tired as i didn't sleep in the chalet. Had a shower and guess what.. i slept without switching off my com. and change into my short, haha.. slept with my towel wrapping over and that it.. i dosed off.. ;P

Current Mood: Happy yet worry @_@

Well, here are some picture to share with u guys, my sister birthday party as well as the spastic game we played after dinner 'extreme gourmet' ~!

the first and third pic was my dear sister with her boyfriend :) and the second one is my sister and her brother(me) ;)

well here the 'Extreme gourmet' lolx.. first we have Dean who is the one in the second pic eating the cabbage soak in the disgusting mixture (first pic) while the fourth pic was clement who have to drink the scoop of soup that contain mayo, seaweed, chili oil, teriyaki sauce and many other weird stuff :S

2004-10-29T08:11:00.000+08:00

FUCK THIS BLOGGER.COM ~!!!! WAS UPDATING IT AND THEIR SYSTEM SUDDENLY DIDN'T WORK AND LEFT THE ENTRY THAT I WANT TO PUBLISH BEING UNSAVED.~!!!! WAT THE HELL ....~! aRRRRRRRR...........~!!!!!

a box fill with disappointment

2004-10-26T13:32:00.000+08:00

Thanks to all that reply to my entry recently regarding love. Well most of u sounded really great and i fully agree with u all. sometime things just dun get in ur way.... and i'm quitting...~~~~~~ 'come what may' is it still true... yes to me i will~! i will~!

ppl might ask jeff would u prefer Fantasy or reality and my ans will be FANTASY. i know i might be disappoint some of u by saying such things but i can only says that reality is too much for me to take and the pain is so so much. Well if i'm able to live in Fantasy i just hope it will not end.. never... haha i think i sound stupid over here. i'll stop here .. dun feel like carry on ler...... :(

Current Mood: Depress ~~>.<~~

Love~~

2004-10-24T03:06:00.000+08:00

Rain.. Rain.. Rain....~~~

It has been raining very often nowadays and it's getting cold. weekend is here and i'm home early tonight. Somthing came into my mind just now while i was staring out the window looking at the rain and the quite night.

What is Love? Committment, honesty, sincerety and great communication are some basic requirement in love! BUT how many ppl now go for serious relationship? Sometime i just can't understand why some ppl go for open relationship or break off after ten over years of relationship! Is Every-lasting still possible?

I, myself have two ex and both ended the way that i didn't want it to. Well.. now i have change and yes i had change from my 1st relationship to the jeff i am now. I have to confess that i'm still a weak boy whenever it come to love! hai... Thanks to my ex for bringing me all kind of joy and lovely moment. I didn't get to thanks u two but only keep hating u two to the core from the time we broke off. Sorry~

I encounter all kind of ppl at work, couples that broke off after many years of committment , ppl that sleep around and many worse one. I dun hope to see any of my friend to be any of those group. I'm a fellow that's very very particular with such stuff so don't let me turn my back and walk away from you~! Be a good Lover and stay sincere to your other half.

We all live in a realistic world , No doubt that physical attraction is part of the consideration for u to fell in love. BUT dun be so damn stupid to get attracted to someone with absolutly no great inner-self! Many ppl are just putting a mask on and why do they do this? Just to have fun with u and kick u away? yes .. i see such stuff but luckily i had yet to encounter one... and pls dun let me bump into it. Well... isn't it good if u are in love and beloved in return? .... well... there's go the cold and quite night... i'm sleeping soon... Love a never ending story in everyone life~~~~ !

Current Mood: Deep in Thought (pensive)

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Band Practice

2004-10-21T23:32:00.000+08:00
Today was a great day, i had a wonderful band practice. But before talking bout my band pract. let Jeff tells u something ba ;)
I was late for school today. Got a call from my CT and she says she want to see me in school today so i make it to school at one in the afternoon. Saw michelle at the concourse and chatted with her and my other classmate Benedict. My lesson start at two and so michelle and i went to the canteen to slack and that's when i bump into my CT. HAHAaa.... She asked whether what time i reached school and i said just. :X While she didn't scream at me but called me to sit beside her. She told me to be good and she hope to see me in line with the class every morning in school. Well... she look very tired and disappointed with the class and so i promised her that YES i will. On top of it , she hope that i study hard. Hai... i think i really got a good CT but the problem is that she can't teach. Mrs Chan ... I will Respect u still... :) But... i still not sure about the outcome whether or not i'm going to be retained or be kicked out from school........ Lets hope for the best :)
Today econ lesson was changed to project work and i practically slack through the PW cos my other group members were absent :S sorry Mr Yim... ;P
Hmm .. then come the Band Pract, which i had waited for so much. Today lots of alumini members joined us in the band practice. The band room seemed so small all of a sudden with so many players and the trumpet section seemed to revive. The trumpet section was actually very quiet but today with the help of those alumni players , they sounded like lion roaring ^.^
we sight read a new piece titled 'American Graffiti XIII' . it's not a bad piece but just a little boring for my section lolx. well , the other section like trombone and trumpet really got lots of homework to cover haha...;P
The peak of band practice today was the combine of the most challenging piece 'Ithaca'. I was very very happy and glad with the combine today and i think my band conductress miss Chan was happy as well ^.^ Despite of having only three horn today , we still played pretty well for ithaca so i really can't imagine if the other four horn player going to turn up for the next band pract. ;)
The band practice ended with Miss Chan's Belated birthday celebration. She looks so happy but so sad that she isn't feeling well. We sang her a birthday song and some of us went to BP plaza for dinner with her. We had our dinner at this restaurant call 'Sakura' and i dun really think the foor there was nice neither was the service :S i waited so long for my rice and one of the dish took ages to be served :S hai... i was so so damn famished just now that i almost wanna complain! lolx. k k at least now i'm so so bloated that i need go do my cruches before i Zzzzzzz.. k k.... some pic to share with u guys tonight ;) good nite.... *hug*

Current Mood: Full

well this are the first three dishes that was serve out of five :P

haha.. look at my band mate Farhan looking so happy at those food and drooling away... ;P

well here's the flutist of my school band. haha do they look Professional? ^.^

well should be able to recognise me right :P pretty much ugly shot for me :(

well let me go through all these cute boy from my band :P from left we have Farhan who is a very good trombonist , Shun Beng (sorry i dun knwo how to spell) our alumini trumpet player . Now playing in the SAF central Band. Clement, a cool alto saxophonist . Norman , a very good clarinetist and ME Jeff... a lousy french horn player hahah ^.^ so remember to spot this guys on our next year band concert :D

i'm updating ..!!

2004-10-19T20:26:00.000+08:00
Hello ..!! sorry haven't being updating my blog for one week ;) hee hee .. well thanks hor zhanli for visiting my blog and remind of updating my blog ;P
well .. didn't do much on last weekend. Just accompany my 'bro' to watch white chick (my third time) he ehee... White chick is a very funny show that i will recommend all of u to watch. haha... ^.^ promos is over and my CT had told our class that only four student from my class will be promoted to J2 while the rest are either ratain or kick out of school. Now, i'm freaking worry and scare .. i know that i won't make it to J2 but will i be able to ratain or will i be kick out of school. hai...! So scare, hope the school will not kick me out cos of my age :( I dun mind retaining. even if i got promoted, i'm will not be strong in my fundamental yet. So retaining for one more year will be better for me to build a stronger fundamental. Well, wish me good luck for the result ba~~~~ :S
Last saturday, my school held their annual open house and from the Student Council , the open house was a great success with more than a thousand of sec sch student attended. I had a great time at the open house .. playing saxophone and laughing with my bandmate ;) hahaha .. k k .. Jeff love to laugh and laughter is the remedy to all stress and sadness :D while the day before(friday), i had my band practice and our conductress brought us some new pieces to sight read and to me i think she really putting lots of hope on our batch. We played tough pieces and some are kinda weird haha.. but i love one of the piece , Ithaca , it's a new band arrangement from the odyssey (symphony #2) by Robert W.Smith. The french horn got solo for both the 1st and 2nd horn. well i let my partner (dean) play the 1st horn and i take the 2nd. The 2nd horn solo is much interesting echoing the 1st horn solo with it muted ;P hmm.. can't wait for the combine for this piece again and all the best to the woodwind section , i think you all gonna have a tough time training ur fingers hahaa... intersting piece .. hope to play this during SYF'05 so... pls let me stay on in the school... :(
hai.. had been slacking in school yesterday , lesson was so boring and the school just not going to show us the result till the 1st of november. For today, i slept till twelve then went to school. Poor ZhanLi was the only guy that turn up for lesson today hahaa... well i went to accompany him after i woke up (around 2.00 when i reached school) , we played poker cards with other friends of his and slack till Mass Pe. did some gym with Zhan Li and went for Chemistry lecture ( my purpose of going to school today).Our lecture was on chemical equilibrium and it's time to complete the tutorial later. our next lecture will be on ionic equlilbrium which i think it's not going to be easy :S alright think that's about it for this entry and it's time to do my tutorial and sleep early for tomorrow school. Oh.. not to forget that i'm so happy to know something last night lolx.. let's hope it will goes well ^.^ (band tomorrow.. Yeah !!!)

Current Mood: worry!!

Ultimate Freebies

2004-10-12T18:41:00.000+08:00
Well after a great long weekend .. school resume. For yesterdau (monday) and today was an inter-house competition day where i took part in Ultimate Frisbee :)
my team consist of five girls , four boys and me! it was a great game which i enjoy alot during the competition :) well our very first match which is against another house team name fleming (sorry i dun know how to spell) was a great virtory. We defeated them with a score of 9-1 . But... this match was actually a very unpleasent one because famin teammate was very unhappy with us .. well i admit we are a little too much on our attitude towards the victory but still we cheer for them! Hmm.. think the hockey girl and chinese high boy that was in flamin was greatly pissed by us. hai...!!! well well well.. all this had ended and i shall not care any further.
follow up the match started five hours later and yes we waited for FIVE HOURS. Can u imagine how tired we are by them. i think that the organiser should open one more ground for the match and not just one! anyway the next match was a great disappointment. We were against this house team name Gama and hai.. they were very strong in freebies and thus our team was defeated by them by the score 3-7 :( hai.. well they are really good players and though we're upset , we learn a lesson.. and experience :) After this match , i was really tired as last night i didn't sleep for the whole night .. was chatting with my friend , Zhan Li over my friend Giffari house on sunday. Well Zhanli (the fellow in my blog pic which we both made a very sarcastic smile =D) was a very great person, haha probably both of us are in the same horoscope thus able to communicate well and understand each other.. he spoke to me lots of things on diferent issue as well as i did! we listen to each other and gave each other opinion.. Zhan Li thanks yo... was nice chatting with u ... u a great buddy to me :) okay okay .. get back to the monday match, after the match i went back straight home with zhan li, and both of us slept in the bus all the way when we reached Jurong Point. Arr.. was really famished that time as i didn't eat anything since the morning and was playing freebies sinec morning till evening so u can imagine how tired i am ba ;) Once i reached home i took my shower and hug my bolster and off i went into my la la land.
today was the final match, it's start at nine and this time the match was really cool and fun. we are fighting against the house team name Curie. We hold the victory by the score of 18-1 . hahaha... ya it's 18. Great game , my team mate i'm very impress by u guys as well as the two other teammate from S11 you guys played well... :)
after the match i went to canteen to chill up with my friends. Actually was thinking leaving school earlier but hai... so angry that the security guard said that we are only allow to leave after one in the afternnon :S In the canteen, i was with Zhan Li, Eugene(Ai Wei's Bf), Boo HonK and Edmund. Boo Honk borrwed a guitar over and he played, he's really a talented boy , able to play piano, drum and guitar and he played them really well. So three of us crowd around him in the canteen and start singing along.. so cool!!!! and time really flies while we were singing and laughing away...
at the strike of one, i walked off school with my swimming gear and head down to Jurong East Swimming Complex. the weather was great. At first , when i was on the jounry there, i'm pretty lazy to go but i just pull myself there.. wahha.. and yes i swam . I was very satisfy because i swam twenty two laps non-stop and left. Actually i thought of thinking to swim more but due to the freebies this morning , i was already kind of tired, especially down on my tighs :)
met up with my 'Bro' kenneth and he accompanied me to hair salon. haha.. i had a new haircut while i really hope it looks good on me... hee hee.. scare sia...:S anyway now i'm home and think i going to study my chemistry before i turn in early for tomorrow school. Take care guys :)

Current Mood: tired and cool~

Well, this is my new haircut that i had this afternoon at Jurong Point hee hee. it;s just a side view cos i think my front view look damn fat and ugly so dun dare to show hahaa.. k k :)

Not My Day~

2004-10-10T17:58:00.000+08:00
it was a great bad day yesterday. Was hoping to enjoy my weekend but then it ended up, i getting drunk :(
I was all ready to go clubbing last night. headed down to meet my girl friend(vivian) with my 'bro' and his friend and then we went down to happy. it was the first time vivian went to happy and i hoped she like it. Well.. sorry vivian that i'm not in a very good mood suddenly. WHy? I saw my second Ex!~ hai.... the moment i saw my ex.. my mind start to feeel with all those haunting past! almost drive me to the verge of crying! i'm such an useless chap! when can i really stand on my feet and not letting such things manipulate me! My mood was really down after seeing my ex and no doubt that i drank alot! Luckily i'm still able to know what happening around me or else i think i'll be collapsing along the street!
Alcahol~~ what is it in them that make one person so drunk...? why it taste bad and yet i still drink it? Can it really drown one sorrow? hai~!
Anyway i feel much better.. just came back from my swim and didnt' really swam alot cos of the crowd... just raally hate those ppl that occupied the lane and chatting away...:S hai... alright going to bunk over my classmate house tonight and looking forward to tomorrow freebies com. ^.^

Current Mood: moody ~

2004-10-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
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The quality that most appeals to you: Strength
In a survival situation, you: Fight, but reluctantly
Your hidden talent is: A beautiful mind
Your gift is: An iron constitution
In groups, you: Observe others' behaviour
Your best quality is: Your generosity
Your weakness is: Being predictable
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Sentosa ^.^

2004-10-08T21:23:00.000+08:00
Woo......!!! It was a great day for me. My 'brother' (kenneth) and i went to Sentosa today and it was really nice cos it isn't crowded at all. The sun was pretty good initially but got cloudy after an hour. Still i manage to get a little tan. hee hee.. while it was cloudy we went down to the sea and enjoy the splashing and swim around it. Hmm... it was so nice and relax , i love it so much... it was then i put all those stress aside and fully indulge to my fullest ;)
While packing off to leave, ken actually wanted to shower at the nearby shower point but i say no. I brought him all the way from siloso beach to beaufort resort changing room and shower.. hee hee.. It took us around twenty mins walk to reach beaufort resort and one the journery, my dear bro was naggin all along saying he's tired.. haha.. "boy... u got to do more walking .. it's good yo" lolx...when we reached there, ken and i were welcomed by the black swimming pool. hmm.. i actually wish to jump into it cos it's so damn beautiful ;) but too bad it's only for the resident. :S well. why i actuallly brought ken all the way to beaufot resort instead of all those isolated shower point was because beaufort resort has a wonderful ambience and their changing room was clean and it FIVE star one leh.. damn classsy sia...~~~ hahaa.. At least ken was satisfy with the changing room ! hee hee.. Jeff is good in choosing great places yo.. ;P
well after shower we walk around beaufort and saw a peacock (haha not very amazing lah) and i took a pic of it he ehee.. the staff there was looking at me with that " err.. mountain turtle ya" wahaha ;P
it was almost five when we reached harbourfront and by tat time both of us was damn famished that we went to have our lunch and dinner at sakae sushi ;) hmm. the food isn't that good compared to the one i had at hyatt. can't forget the first time i went to hyatt arr.. cool sia~~ ^.^ well follow on , ken left me alone and went for hot date sia..! sick boy.. wahaha... was so tired on the train and the damn train was pack like sandwiche :S
alright now i'm home still in my red billabong singlet and board short .. going to take a shower and go for a jog around my neighbourhood.. :) tata and enjoy ur Weekend dude ^.^

current mood: exuberant & relax

Happiness Depend On Ourselves

isn't beaufort resort beautiful. i hope i will be able to stay there for at least one night it's so damn cool but it too pricey ler (around 400 per night for one person)

While this the peacock that i saw haha.. not that amazing though.. :S

It's Over

2004-10-08T01:52:00.000+08:00
Promos ended and it's time to enjoy .. to all those stressful souls , it's time for real fun now. whatever is over let it pass, no point brooding and worrying for the result. To me, I had done my best and what i get is all the best that i had put in. wish me all the best and all the best to u guys. What i wish is to get promoted , even if i failed i hope the school will considering letting me retain instead of kicking me out of the school.
Breathe In & Breathe Out~~~~ letting all those vexation and tension built up for the pass few week out!! Well tomorrow i'm going to make sure i enjoy myself at the beach with my brother kenneth.. yes just two of us... he's the only best buddy i had left to share my joy and saddness with. well i bet u guys definitly got urself planned for this weekend.. so enjoy urself to the fullest and see you guys again. Hugzz...!

interesting

2004-10-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

Your Sexual Profile (you sexual deviant you...)
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Your Secret Kink Thing You like being peed on.
Your Sexual Strength Your HOT SEXY BODY!!
Your Sexual Weakness Your partner never orgasms.
Your Likely STD You're clean! Hurray for you!
How Many Partners in Crime? 22
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hahaha.. so interesting what urs?

my destop

2004-10-05T13:50:00.000+08:00

well this is where jeff study !!! messy yo.~~

Chem Paper2

2004-10-05T13:02:00.000+08:00
Hai.....! just reach home and i decided to write my blog. Today paper was extreme difficult :'( it really tough.. !!!
i think so hard but still the question was left blank. hai.. why do the teacher set such difficult paper during promo. I think i really gonna fail my promo this time round. worse ! i'm so worry that i will just be kick out of school cos of my age. I really hope that i can pass or retain but not kicking me out ~~~~>.<~~~~
I'm so stress.. so stress...! today paper really upset me so much! alright i better go take a short nap and start working hard for tomorrow paper.. pls ... pls.. save me!! :(

stupid

2004-09-26T19:37:00.000+08:00
well .. i surrender.. the media player just dun work when i changed it to other songs.. hai... think have to stick to the old one for this moment.:S

pirates of caribbean

2004-09-26T03:39:00.000+08:00
well guys... this few weeks i will be playing some rather heavy music / band music hahaa.. and i going to start off with my favourite soundtrack pirates of caribbean . every twice a week i will change to a new track :P hope u like it. the track that is currently playing is one of my favourite. and i like such music..;P hee hee (sorry i dun know how to make the track repeat itself .. so if u wanna listen again pls play it urself ^.^")

new look ^.^

2004-09-26T01:58:00.000+08:00
well.. my previous blog's template faces some problem so decided to change it and anyway i also feel like giving a new look to my blog. so.. how... does it look better.. ?? i had changed the music as well, hope u guys enjoy reading my blog... ! let everything start afresh ba ^.^

A Saturday ~

2004-09-25T19:06:00.000+08:00
a saturday.... saturday.... don't really know what happen last night.. .. hai... feeling much better now.
last night i went to watch a midnight show(white chick) with my sister and i really had a great time laughing in the cinema. haven;t been laughing so much since the first day i step into JC. well.... i really hope to laugh as much as i can and stay cheerful like when i was in sec sch with my buddy ( so sad now each of us are walking our own way ). today was a lazy day which i slept till very late and now i got to mug for my promos which is in less than a week. take care guys and do enjoy ur weekend :)

All the best to everyone having exams and to my friends in PJC ... i will try to see u guys in J2..

I Need An Answer! pls.. ,

2004-09-24T18:48:00.000+08:00
Sat at the very corner of my room just now.. don't really knwo what to do! why am i like that... so stress.. so stress.... so stress.. !! Never ever in my life had i felt such stress till i broke into tears while studying ~~~~>.<~~~~
promos is a week from now and there's so many more to cover .. hai.. there's so many things running in my brain .. what happen!!! what happen!!! why why why WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!! my heart ache... something was like clogging my brain , disable me from thinking and recollecting all my thoughts.. i can't piece anything now... why ... :'( i want a shoulder to cry on.. pls... i'm sad.. really sad.
i didn't go to school today cos i'm late.. i can't go.. but i studied for the fucking chem test.. i studied!!!! i STUDIED!!! i hardly have sleep just to rush through the Fucking organic Chem...!!!! Arr... why why why.... anyone out there for me to reach pls.. for me to.. i'm breaking down .. breaking down.... i had fully exploit all engery i have... still i can't .. i can't.... !!!! Living in this mudane world , letting ME and i mean I being tormented by all this stuff.. I'm a typical pisces.. a boy that hate stress.. ... stress.... but this time the stress i experience are inevitable... somethings inexplicable seem to take over me...
-_- is there a meaning to live on.. is there.... can i just put a full stop to all this.. or is there someone there to extricate me from all this pain... Arr.. i hate everything everyone.. i hate i hate i HATE!!!!! all of a sudden this pisces doesn't seem to function accordingly... i should be able to handle my own stress able to free myself from all this problem. but now it stuck at this point... ..... what? how? why? !!!! i WANT tO Cry... let it drown my sorrow..... whatever.. whatever..........................~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Satisfy?

2004-09-18T01:31:00.000+08:00
While it late in the night now... and i decided to keep my blog alive... hee hee..:P
another eight more hour will be my chinese mock paper.. i didn't really study much just hope to get at least a pass and i' m satisfy. whereas for the concert today , i was really impress by them. I think i really underestimated SP band. The french horn section was about ten over members and they really sound great ... intonation was pretty good.. while for the trombone ... i think it jsut a little too brassy... ;P Other than this , i also bump into my sec sch band mate winson who is playing tenor sax in the concert. To my surprise , he actually iomproved alot since the last time i heard from him. keep it up dude !! ^.^
thanks cg for pulling me along to this concert, if not i will really miss a great concert.. err... shun say great , good will be better :) while u are in ur school uniform and u seem busy today.. ended up leaving me off alone.. hai...:P k k .. weekend is here and it time to mug and get my Zzzzzzzzzzzzz.............. hahaha ... *hug**hug* too all of u ;)

Stress!!!

2004-09-17T16:35:00.000+08:00
Hello..... haven't been updating my blog due to STRESSSs........!! arr.. while for the past few days ... i could only say that i'm under stress and studying... AND yes i need SLEEP!!!!! headache elapse very often ... o.O
while today school ended at 12.30 and so i went for my swim ... very satisfy to complete my swim and then i left the pool.. now sitting infront of my com. in my uniform feeling so tired and sleepy ... think i better take a nap now before going to the SP band concert with CG..... -.-Zzzzzzzzzzz

Nothing is predestined. The obstacles of your past can become the gateways to the new beginning =)

have u wondered why?

2004-09-08T01:41:00.000+08:00
Have you wondered why?

The way he seems to make your world goes round;
The way he never fails to make you smile,
when all your world seems crashing down?

Have you missed someone, and wondered why?

The way your heart beats;
faster and slower at the same time;
Each time your phones rings,
each time your phones beeps with a message,
and you know it has to be him.

Have you missed someone, and wondered why?

Although nothing is confirmed yet, nothing much is said. Well, what comes may.

Happy birthday

2004-09-08T01:38:00.000+08:00
Happy birthday KimLian... it was so nice of you to invite me to ur birthday celebration despite of i never contact with u for so long. ;)
Arr... project work , project work.. why should this stupid things come into compulsary for all of us. i felt liek i'm in a rat race rushing for the written report. Worse .. i'm the leader of the group but yet the group isn't doing well. hai... this crappy work is driving me crazy.. i really wanna burn down the school. anyone wanna join? Project work itself is so stressful, not to mention my academic.... promos is in three weeks time and i have yet to really study seriously . What Am I Doing... Arrr... I'm So tired... Can I Have A Time Out..!!!!!!

aWhAt~!

2004-09-08T01:36:00.000+08:00
I'm in the world, but the wrold dun seems to offer me what i want. So much for the 'ideal' relationship. Human - creatures who are afraid of changes. Oh yes, definately. Changes in their everyday routine, changes in their working environment. So lets say, A and B have been a couple for 4 years and having been staying together for so long. So much so that A eventually found out B has been sleeping around and such. So what? A and B compromised to let it be a open relationship so that they can both have the best of both worlds. What is that? I would have just broke off and not stay together anymore. Its easier said then done, but should one just compromise to all this for the convenience of things? Its all so grotesque.

Sigh. Its always the case isn't it? People are not willing to let go. People are afraid to let go. What good is it? Sigh. I will never know.

a starfish story

2004-09-06T01:18:00.000+08:00
A Starfish Story

Once upon a time there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work.

One day he was walking along the shore. As he looked down the beach, he saw a human figure moving like a dancer.

He smiled to himself to think of someone who would dance to the day. So he began to walk faster to catch up.

As he got closer, he saw that it was a young man and the young man wasn't dancing, but instead he was reaching down to the shore, picking up something and very gently throwing it into the ocean.

As he got closer he called out, "Good morning! What are you doing?"

The young man paused, looked up and replied, "Throwing starfish in the ocean."

"I guess I should have asked, why are you throwing starfish in the ocean?"

"The sun is up and the tide is going out.
And if I don't throw them in they'll die."

"But, young man, don't you realize that there are miles and miles of beach and starfish all along it. You can't possibly make a difference!"

The young man listened politely. Then bent down, picked up another starfish and threw it into the sea, past the breaking waves and said -

"It made a difference for that one."

My Sat

2004-09-05T06:10:00.000+08:00
yeah!!1 holiday is here and i really got to have lots of Zzzz hahaa... anyway didn't do much today. was studying my chem while i working ... and i was so tired that i requested to knock off at six instead of nine. after six i went for dinner with my friend at moon river cafe which is sited at stamford house. The food there was really nice hee hee ...! ;)
After dinner i went to raffles city and bought two arena polo t. hee hee love it so much. follow on , i went down to city link flash adn splash to buy some rip curl staff ;) hee hee i'm so spendthrift. hai... i'm so tired while on the train heading home. when i reached home i switch my com. and start checking mail. Then there's go my phone ringing and my dear brother kenneth was pulling me along to club. at first i was kinda reluctant cos i'm tired but it the first time that ken going cubbing with me so i went. Arr.. it was damn ruch for me cos it really last min. i went for a quick shower and put on my new arena polo t hee hee.. it almost half past eleven and we really got to catch the last train so i rush down to jurong point in cab and luckily i make it in time haha. but i was huffing and puffing in the train trying to cooll... down.. haha...
when we reached there , as usual it's very crowded but i manage to get in free as my friend knwo the owner of happy. hee hee.. my friend all say i scandalous wear until so boyish tonight.. haha.. crazy... tonight i was really enjoying myself and never had i ever step onto the dance floor and dance so enthusiatically!! hahaa...it was first time being so happy and enjoying myself.. saw lots of my customer.. they recognize and they are surprise to see me in club. haha..:) i had never came to club since my last relationship and now i'm back in cubbing scene. thought i hate smoke and crowd but occasionally i do need a break from those stressful studies and of course friendship....!!!!! Hai... i reached home pretty late (around four thirty) had quick shower and Zzzz.... there's go my saturday... u guys.. do enjoy ur holiday and remember not to stress urself too much :) take care.

To win you've got to stay in the game!

this is what u want let u be

2004-09-04T02:44:00.000+08:00
"want me to link you. pls get normal. read as many times till you understand.thx cause i feel disgusted." --> written by one of my best friend. It was shock or should i say disgusted to know a friend of urs say such things indeed Best friend... Kenneth and i regarded u like brother and u prefer ur way of looking us from another angel! At first when i visited ur blog i'm curious why I, kenneth and ashley blog isn't link from ur blog. it was reallly stupid that only till just now that i read this from the blog!!!! Let Me TELL YOU.... I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I WRITING IN MY BLOG .. IF U DUN LIKE IT SIMPLY GO AHEAD. FROM THE MOMENT U LINKED US U SHOULD ALWAYS UNDERSTAND THAT OUR ENTRY WILL NOT BE WHAT U WANT. YOU'RE DISGUSTED SO AS I. UR WORDS IRKKKKKKK ME!!!! Thanks i REALLY KNOW u very well!!!! Jeff is Jeff... and I will love to write what i like what affecting my life in my own blog. since my blog or instead our blog disgust u, it worthless to link u as friend either and I SHall JUST LET YOU BE HAPPIER !!!!!! Kenneth i'm really disappointed with what he wrote.. very.....!!!!

I treat everyone fairly well if i am treated in return, if u disturbed me with ur rubbish i shall go away. Your selfishness causes this break in the friendship and it better for u NOT to know JEFF exist in ur list!!!

Me in spec and red :S

2004-09-04T02:03:00.000+08:00

Ha ha.. i'm reading the menu feeling so incapable and indecisive on ordering food :S

Naughty Jeff

2004-09-04T01:45:00.000+08:00
Zzzzzzzzz..... lazy jeff was so tired this morning and therefore skipped school :P Was actually woken up by my granny at 6.30AM but i'm just too tired to get up and change into my uniform so i just bluff my granny that today no school... haha... ops... Jeff is telling lies :S
while i woke up at 11.00 and did some cruches and pumping before i head down to jurong east swimming pool.. hai.. it was so cloudy when i reached there so i finished up my twenty laps and left. At the mrt station i called one of my bandmate norman whether he would like to have lunch but nay.. he got something on. So as usual i got my 'bother' kenneth to accompany me to jurong point. after walking around we decided to head to billy bomber and have my lunch (and it a real late lunch) haha.. i had never have such proper dinner {is it proper?}. I had spaghetti and a chicken soup while kenneth had fries (HuGe FrIEs ~~~ )Arr.. so sinful and i'm so bloated after it.
we got nothing else to do so kenneth decided to go to my house and read up some maths notes at my house. It was really late when kenneth need to head home to have his dinner and i ... haha.. still feeling so damn guilty that i had a sinful lunch... alright i think i will stop here... and this is what i had for lunch :S

last band prac.

2004-09-02T22:20:00.000+08:00
yo! it so nice back home now sitting on my chair updating">dating my blog. just walked back from jurong point with my bandmate farhan, we had interesting conversation on the way home and ya we even 'bitch' about some things ...hahaha.... ;)
while as usual thursday was always the most boring day in my timetable. i had tutorial follow by tutorial non-stop :S hm.. still owe my econ teacher his essay better finished it by today. Today was my last band practice before we break exam and frankly speaking -.-" i didnt enjoy today practice. hai.... we preparing for the open house and the song we played was boring. Sight-readed a new piece and :S it was super boring! we should had played better pieces or i dun even mind playing west side story. worse still , we gonna play the same song jap iv that we played for teacer day during the open house. hai.... Oh ya..not forgeting to say sorry again to my bandmate norman that i called off the dinner . SO SORRY... Next time i promise i will k.. sorry hope u are okay and not pissed.. hai.. bad bad Jeff...hee hee :S u see so many hai in my entry .. kk better be more optimistic :D k k study hard yo guys... i got to start studying ler... :)

I still Love My Band .. PSB RoCk!!! Let's all of us stop procrastinating and start working hard for Promotional exam.

Monthly Forecast for September, 2004

2004-09-02T22:15:00.000+08:00
Monthly Forecast for September, 2004
Provided by Astrology.com

Careful! The month starts in a haze that would make a Los Angeleno sneeze. There could be charlatans out there, waiting in one of the foggier side streets of the mind to get you. Don't answer any riddles, but do write them down for later. By the 5th, you've entered a new phase, where the stars bring beauty and illusion into your days. Write a love letter (maybe in purple ink?), and send it even if you think you shouldn't. By the 9th, someone (not necessarily the person you addressed your letter to) is going to announce themselves as a suitor. This could be the right thing at the right time. If you're making big decisions around the 13th, look first, but then go ahead and leap. On the 18th and 19th, you should be careful if you go swimming -- there could be (metaphorical) sharks sharing your space. The month ends with a bang (maybe your new lover is a drummer?). Anyway, you'll surely have the chance to dress up and rediscover something you forgot you knew about yourself.

alright let's see how 'TRUE' it can be for a pisces boy wahahaa...:P

Teacher's Day

2004-09-01T21:52:00.000+08:00
Hm... yesterday teacher's day celebration was so nice! i think that was the time where i think the band played the best... good job band :) while giving off the teacher day gift , i was actually hoping to give miss Seah but so sad that someone gave her :( hmmmpfff.... :S after that i went for a swim and i completed my twenty laps and i left, was kinda tired after the swim but still i decided to head down bugis to hunt for bag. While i'm so diasppointed that i didn't find my ideal bag so i return home empty handed :( after that i start revising for my maths till i Fall Zzzzz..........
For today, i didn't eventually did much .. stayed at home packing up my room and then start my revision for econ. HaHa... Jc's life is just studying studying mugging mugging... haha.. but what more can i do :P ok.. better continue my study ler ... take care guyz.. :)

hmm... I feel great today ;)

2004-08-31T00:46:00.000+08:00
While it's about one in the morning that i writing this entry. it was a extreme long day for me due to the teacher day's rehearsal. hee hee guess what i enjoy alot for today rehersal hee hee... after the first round i borrowed julaiha's saxophone to play.. hee hee.. :) thank you hor (i dun think i spelled ur name CORRECTLY haha :P) while i really miss my sec sch band days and i mean my batch :) Jason see this i writing something .. just wanna tell my section which was in my section. You guys brought the saxophone section proud, certainly not because of a sectional leader like me ;) I really hope that we could sit down together one day and reminisce on the good old day when we combine within our on section :) so fun. Today when i was playing the saxophone i really misses jason, eu yee , xiuling , winston .... u guys...are great :) alright hope to meet up with u guys soon :)While though now i'm in the french horn section, i still miss the saxophone section i once used to have. (hope that i can just be back at that time for just a while and i'm satisfy) ;).Other then saxophone, i played the clarinet... err.... i think i can;t play a clarinet at all... haha it make my embro. so tired hahaha.... alright looking forward to tomorrow celebration... and dean u got a small solo... better play it well yo.. ;) all the best :D P.S.B RoCk ~~~~!!!

The most united and bonded band will produce a much excellent piece than any other's can ;)

my weekend

2004-08-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

hello.... alright let me briefly share u guys my weekend ;)

on saturday i went to work as usual and also because my boss is very busy with some thing recently.Business was kinda quiet so i actually studied my chemistry there :) haha luckily i make full use of my time. While promotional exam is around the corner but i still hang out late. Went to Pub again on ssaturday and was packed to it capacity. o.O i was having a hard time getting myself through the crowd ... ai yo. -.-" okay i shall admit that i'm a useless chap. just a cup of long island and i got tipsy.. and it's real tipsy wahaha.:P alright probably i drank it too fast.(finished it within one min) it was four in the morning when i reach home and after washing up .. it already five before i went Zzzzzz

slept for eight hours (one in the afternoon i woke up), i rush down to work again cos my boss got an urgent appoinment to attend. while it was my granny's birthday today and everyone suppose to turn up but so sad to see only four out of seven of my granny daughter turn out. This year the birthday celebration is no longer like last time which is so much ritzy. we had it at chevron club restaurant and then head to ktv to cut the cake. hee hee... it was so sinful that i ate so much today ...(cos we are separated to two table and my table have very few ppl and the each dish was like a serving of ten ppl when my table was only occupied by seven ppl).Suppose to stay on to finish teh KTV session but too bad got school the next day so went back instead to pack things up :) alright that's abou it for this entry . tomorrow got teacher's days reherasal again.. hope it will be fun :)

phew~

2004-08-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

F***!! feeling tired as usual almost fell alseep in today econ lecture which is on oligopoly.. ai yo... so boring.. haha... probably mr Yim doesn't fit to hold a lecture , a tutorial for him would be better ;)

while for the chemistry lecture today was fun, i simply love the topic (organic compound). it's so interesting and 'challenging'!Alright i shall do well forthis topic. erm.. ya not forgetting about my chemistry test result .. i got 18.5/25 ! o.O it was the first time i got a pass for this subject but probably this time the tested topic (kinetic engery) is easy ;P BUT for my econ i was not very satisfy, i flung my mcq by two marks hai... just dun know why i can flung my mcq while for my essay part (a) i score a big fat ZERO hahaa cos i wrote out of point while for part (b) i scored 10/15 therefore overall i scored 10/25 for my essay itself :(

school ended at twelve thirty follow by my chemistry revision class till two thirty. after then my dad came to school to see my CT on regard of my seventh time late for school and this time i really got myself into deep trouble ;P if i gonna be late one more time i will be suspensed from school or worse EXPEL. ai yo i never believe that late-coming is such a seiouse offend :S hai... while i better make sure i wake up early this time or else u guys will not see me in school anymore ler :(

today band was damn cool ... while my bandmate norman msg me during econ lecture today saying he wanna enjoy today and i think yeah we did enjoy . we sight-read two pieces one was pirates of the carribean and the other one is the seventh day of july. while both piece i love alot but prefer more of the pirates of carribean haha it so nice especially the part with lots of thriplet :) *coolzz* . while for the seventh day of july was meant to be tough but then i think dean and i think it nothing much lor hahaa.. like the glizzing part for this song .. wahaha..:) alright think i shall stop here and enjoy ur weekend yo .. think i need more Zzzzzzzz for this weekend...!!!!

practice self-discipline so to stop temptation !!

Teacher's day rehearsal

2004-08-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

Arr...!!! so sleepy today as i slept at five this morning and have to wake up for school two hour later.Thursday is always the most boring and tired day because i'm having continuous tutorial all the way from eight till four-thirty. though i'm tired but dun know why i keep telling myself not to fall asleep and i really did .. hahaha.. furthermore today i got teacher's day rehearsal.. Arrr... -.-" so stupid and i think that our band isn't well prepared for it yet. Today performance i would grade three out of ten *horrible*. while , i rush back straight after the leader dismissed us and study for my math's test tomorrow ;) all the best guys :D

Be like a postage stamp. Stick to one thing until you get there.

Smart Casual Day

2004-08-25T20:05:00.000+08:00

Today is smart casual day and i choose to wear a green t-shirt and jeans. today was a short day for me and i also choose not to go for band cos of all the stack of homework that is yet to complete. once i return home got to burn cd for my sister and i fell asleep.hm.. tomorrow there's a econ mcq class test so got to study and to finish out my power series homework!! :)alright think i better start studying ... all the best to u guys for promo hor....(it about one month time ler) -.-"

Slacking is not in my DICtionary!!

Horoscope

2004-08-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. this is so like me!! ;P

PISCES MAN

He is very emotional and always allow himself to be very emotional.
He can
have a good night sleep and be in a good mood, and less than few
hours at
work he can be very moody. He does not understand things or try to
understand things easily. If you notice him carefully, you will
notice what
kind of moods he is in.

He is a thinker and able to do well at work and always succeed. His
normal
gestures mean he always look at other people faults, but he will
not talk
about it. He has the ability to know your thought and able to tell
you what
you are thinking about.

He can mostly memorize all his anger, his loves. They are his
important
secrets and he will keep them to himself and will never let you
know. He is
not a very ambition man and careless about his position in society.
Wealth
does not drawn his attention, because he is not greedy man and as
well he
thinks money is not something that will last. He could be very
careless
about his future. He does not like to fight against all odds, but
instead
following the stream and make life easier. Sometimes because he
likes to
take an easy path, which cause him very unsteady future.

He is kind and slightly lazy, but it is his cute character. He
hates rules
and regulations. He will never look down on people. He is a polite
guy and
can be very aggressive when he is mad. He loves to think that he
lives in a
beautiful world and surround by nice people, so if he finds his
world is
cruel and not what he expects, he will live in his world instead.

His other charm is that he is a funny guy, and it is his real
weapon. He can
tease you and yet make it looks like one of his joke. Even when he
is sad,
he still has that funny face, so you could hardly tell if he is mad
or
depress. He likes to hide his feeling and help other people
especially those
who need friend or lonely.

He will be everything that you want and everything you do not want.
He has a
chance to make it as much as a chance to fail. He can determine to
make it
work and can do it well, except he tends to lost his energy with
other
important things, that's how he miss many of his good opportunity.

He can be happy and content by himself. What he think is important
is not
"Love" ,but firm status and stability. He has plenty of love for
you.

He is a good speaker, as much as he is a good listener. When he is
with you,
he wants to be happy. He understand his partner's emotional. He
likes to
take a long rest and sometimes being alone. If he needs to be
alone, try not
to disturb him.

He is a sensitive, quiet , shy and easily hurt. He wants to feel
worthy. He
can be mad and noisy, but once he calm down, he will be that happy
person
again. He is not a jealous or possessive guy, and if he feels
jealous he
will hide it. He has many friends of both sex, and he care about
his
friends. He likes to have lots of friends, so you can not get
jealous or
else you will loose him. He likes beautiful things, so if a pretty
woman
walk by he will look ,so do not get mad at him knowing this fact.

When he is lonely or feeling sad, be close to comfort him. He does
not like
to take advice,so if you want him to listen or to follow your
advice, you
have to act as a good sample for him first. He likes a cheery and a
smart
woman. If you treat him like he is your special person, then he
will be that
special person for you. He will trust you if he is in love, but try
not to
over doing it and spoil him too much. You have to know yourself
worth all
he time too.

sick day

2004-08-25T00:34:00.000+08:00

sick sick sick... it was a bad day. When i woke up today . i hardly stand properly cos of severe headache. so didn't go to school today but today i got my SPA test so no choice i went to school at one despite of being so sick. when to visit the doc. and the doc says i lack of energy , need to eat properly and have sufficient sleep. given some vitamin C tablet and some medicine for my headache and cough.

While today SPA was so easy and interesting , hopefully can get a good grade for it :) after spa i stay in school for awhile before heading back and i took my pill in school after eating tuna sandwiche. on the way home, i forget that the pill will cause drowsiness so in the train i keep on falling alseep :S once i reach home i can't take it that i collapse onto the floor and Zzzzzz.... Was Waken up by my granny to take my porridge and after that waited for 'D' online and yes , i saw 'D' and we manage to video conference hahaha... so nice... never get to see you since u left finally. pls take care... weather there isn't good and stuffy.... i'll promise to take care myself so dun worry yo... alright i think i will stop here and go Zzzzz....nite nite ;)

Love Is In The Air

Monday blue

2004-08-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

o.O today was such a tired day for me(haha i think everyday to me is tired :x) suppose to take a cab to school with Giff but then i woke up at seven and so have to take a cab to school myself hmm.. nothing come more important then this someone that i msg good morning haha .:P while why i need to go school early cos of the morning assembly. our band got to play the national anthem and school song. hm.... it was kinda sad to played the school song so badly :S Think we better start practicing on our school song .. it's so 'rojak' -.-"

Hmm...guess what happen today during PE !!!! Ahem!!! while... toady we had captain ball for PE and i not very good in handling ball so my little cute classmate Tu yuan throw the ball and the ball didn't eventually land on my hand but.....FACE (piak) *ouch* so pain... i thought my nose gonna crack but luckily it didn't and it took me a few mins to regain my vision and start playing -_-" After Pe went to shower and as usual the toilet lights isn't working and bendict , zhan li and i shower in the dark.:S sick... hardly see anything.. haha.. but it really cool taking a shower after the captain ball as we are really wet :)

let me think what more.. yaya... thanks for sending me the msg it brighten my day haha... the one that "you are so far, that's why i shouted... I MMMMiiiiiiiiissssssssssssssss You!" hee hee... ;) alright alright.. never eat much today and worse feel a little feverish .. better rest early ler... -.-"

Make Believe

2004-08-23T21:48:00.000+08:00

this is the song's lyric of ' Make Believe' by Kavana

Is it possible for us to dream together?
Do you really think that we can make things matter?
There's a place where no one seems to care,
The two of us can make it anywhere...

Inspiration comes to me
whenever I can see beyond the rain, yeah...
I close my eyes imagine times
I spend my hours looking for sunny days...

And you know... Ooh...

CHORUS :-
If you make believe with me
And we'll see where it takes us,
You gotta hold on tight coz we're gonna fly high,
Give me some time and I will protect you,
Tell me all your secrets,
And I will tell you mine...

Do you think that this could last forever?

My Weekend

2004-08-22T20:59:00.000+08:00

Hello... so guilty for not updating my blog reguarly haha...:P I shall share with u guys my weekend.... a weekend i will never forget :(

I was staying out during my weekend. Last friday after my band practice i rushed down to meet you. i can't afford to waste any time that i left with you as you are off on sunday. it was spending my weekend with you. it was the first time both of us watch movie (the stepford's wives) together and laugh so loudly as well. i love the part where bobby (think that's the right name) wearing the dear head gear showing that spastic expression. She's so funny. hmm.. when will i be able to watch another film with you and will u be able to return just in time to watch the band festival. :)

Thanks for sending me to school on saturaday morning. After test, we met up and you always got surprises for me. I have no idea what i can do and what i can give but the sincerity and love i can give when u are not around at this moment. while after meeting up for lunch, i went back home to wait for the computer to arrive and now i'm here typing my first entry using this new com. that sat, it took that delivery guy three hours to get everything fixed and running well. thanks for the help and was so stun to knwo that u are my pjc senior haha... k k.. hope u will be doing fine in army (u doesn't seem to be happy when i was asking about ur army stuff).

it was almost eleven when i got my computer done and left the house, rushing to holland.V to meet you again. You should know that i felt so out of place when i was there with ur sister and cousin. just doesn't feel easy at that time. haha.. but i love the ambience there it's cool and the wine taste kinda of 'nice' (haha .. i dun really knwo how to differentiate it).

Times passed off so fast that sunday was here. early in the morning we went to funan i.t mall to get our webcam and yes we bought the dual pack. hope to see you soon using my webcam. it all ready on my monitor :)it's half past two and now we're at ur apartment. and less than three hours time u will be gone... T.T I sent you off at the airport and the feeling of unwillingness set in. I tried my very best not to recall the very incident i had one and a half year back and to be strong. The moment u step into the departure gate.... tears flow................................. tears of unwillingness..... i can't stop it sorry.... i never tell u i did cry cos i dun want you to feel sad as well. I miss you... miss you SO Much... at the point u left, i start to miss and start to feel the pinch in my heart ~~~>.<~~~ Pls pls... take care... i know recently hong kong had very bad air pollutiion and typhoon. pls take care... :( I'll wait here at singapore... wait.... wait.... till you return ..... pls prove ben wrong ..... i dun want his intuition to be right! (i knwo u will be reading this ... Jeff is worried... but i will stay strong .. remember the song u call me to listen 'make believe' by Kavana. i will hold on tight.. and i believe in forever.....!!!!

Is Forever Long Enough !!

I will wait for YOU.

2004-08-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

Three more days and you are leaving. Dun know why my heart doesn't seem to let you go! Why? Days are short and time we get to spend seem like the speed of light. I hope that god will let us have more time to know each other better. But, you have to leave ... u have to..... i can't stop you but to let the tears flow down from my cheeks. I'm still confuse whether or not to send u off on Sunday, worry that what i once experience will happen again and painful tears will once again flow down. Yes! i'm glad for all effort u had done during this few day, trying hard to spend quality time with me knowing me .. loving me.....!!! Thanks but still i can't bear the thought of u apart from me... i can't. Even now, the thought is fresh in my mind bringing tears in my eyes. T_T I promise..... promise ... promise i will wait for you and the song by Kavana "will you wait for me" that i sent you probably will be able to tell you how ur dear jeff is feeling... feeling of fear... loneliness and unwillingness. Nothing much that i can do, think the strong front that i always carry out will be destroyed on this coming Sunday. Furthermore thanks for delaying ur flight till five to accompany me. I Will Wait .. wait ... wait..... ~~~~>.<~~~~ (never did i feel such confuse and heart pain before, "ouch"!)

love is in the air

2004-08-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a long and tiring day. There's no lecture at all but all tutorial with hardly any break in between :S
My leg muscle was still aching due to the canal run on tuesday and let's talk about tuesday. I'm very happy to realize that my stamina is still okay. Very satisfy with my canal run as i came in the first
among the other runner in my mass P.E but if my classmate Giffari is here, i think i will be behind him then. While i'm always set giffari as my target to challenge him.. haha..
On top of it, i would like to praise my class that you all are great especially the girls, u make us guys proud to come in faster then some other guys in other class.
Especially, our class cutest belle Huan Qin who ran constantly the whole canal.Really impress me , think she really did a good job and improve a lot. Keep it up. Run with you guys on next tuesday again ;)

After school, went dinner with a friend that suppose to leave on wednesday but he said that there's some amendment on his flight and of course Jeff was very happy to hear that.
We had our dinner at a place i never being before and the food was very delicious , especially the sashimi i love it alot ."yummy"! The place is in Hyatt hotel level two. It have a rather nice ambience as well.
Great place to bring ur love one there ;)

while let's come back to today. Chinese lesson today was so boring that we're doing chinese story book review and i fell asleep while reading my chinese story book .. hahaha
always hate reading chinese book , the words are just like sleeping spell that bring me to sleep Zzzzzz -.-" after then everyone was busy studying for Kinetic test that will be held after school today. Never had i study so hard for a chemisty
test and this was the first time and i think i really put in lots of effort for it , hope i will pass this time round :) After test i rush out of the lecture hall cos someone is picking me up hahaha.. it's so sweet of u to pick me up thanks. i really happy to meet
you even for a short while due to my pile of tutorial to complete thanks you ;) can't wait for tomorrow where i gonna stay out till sunday.. hee hee..:P k k meantime wishes all econ student to study hard for this coming saturday perfect competition test and a
enjoy ur coming weekend yo ;) (Yeah! my computer is coming this saturday ... think will be able to update my blog reguarly this time round ) Nite Nite Zzzzz (,")

The greatest things in life is to love and beloved in return

I'm so Lousy

2004-08-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

~~~~>.<~~~~ Why should i like this .... why should i ... i'm so stupid ....

Something happen

2004-08-16T22:19:00.000+08:00
Let me summarize what i did for my weekend.......
On saturday.. i went to club again. don't really know why i go clubbing but i think is to get some drink. My best friend Kenneth suppose to go with me but then he didn't *sob* :( Always failed to accompany .. Still i managed to get my buddy Ben to go with me. Happy was packed to it capacity that night and i'm lucky to get in early to avoid the never-ending queue :S While it isn't a good night i think cos i saw so many ppl that i know someone that i know long ago some of my ex's friends as well. hai.... i think i actually not being myself that night.. one reson is i'm kinda drunk. Firstly .. i would like to say i'm not a small devil k mr vincent... thanks for giving such "nick". Secondly, sorry Ben for making you worry and taking care of me in club that night. lastly, Nice knowing u 'D'...
While sunday was pretty fine and 'good'. shan't say much about it. oh.. ya... i went to watch top or bottom on saturday ALONE -.-" cos it a last min thing. AND IT WAS A HORRIBLE PLAY........ LIKE ROJAK!!! Luckily it's a complimentary ticket or else .... :S
Just read a e-mail from my friend in USA and he said it was hit by hurricane.. he's house was swept off by hurricane and flood set in six metre from the ground.... lucky he's fine now. Pls take care :)
alrght tomorrow after school i will treasure the time i left as 'D' is leaving for hong kong.... ~~~>.<~~~ Thanks for the gift, i will carry it wherever i go. good nite guys...

What should i do... COnfusion .. Confusion...!!!

Busy Yo~~

2004-08-14T11:40:00.000+08:00

Hi Hi Hi~~~ sorry.. Was too busy to update my blog nowadays cos of studies. have been very stress over coming test recently especially the coming chemistry test on kinetic.

while i think the last entry i talked about Singapore Brainest Kids.. so did anyone of u watched? haha.. was very impress by those young kids especially stancy from "RGPS" though she didn't got the singapore brainest kids i still think she's cleverer than annabeth from "Nanyang primary school". Stancy specialise sub is dinosaur but Annabeth is on Lord of the ring. It obvious that the area of the subject that Stancy covered is much much more larger than Annabeth...:S hai.... so unfair!!! never mind...! Stancy Rox ;P

Last night went to watch Catwomen with my two best friends, Jason and Kenneth. It was so fun going out with u guys again and it always enliven my day.While as usual Kenneth still can't stop himself from disturbing Jason.. haha.. The show catwomen was kinda funny, i as laughing so much in theatre.. So if u wanna laugh go Catch it this weekend :)

alright here i stop and have a great weekend ;)

angelic layer

2004-08-10T19:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday bought a japan animation show ,Angelic Layer.. hahah guess what. i actually watch the part one till five this morning before i go and sleep. only slept for six hours and i went for my swim. So sleepy -.-"

After swimming, suppose to watch "ella enchanted" alone but didn't. Instead, i went to orchard alone first and a friend accompany me later on. while i was alone.. i'm hunting for the bag that i want but too bad.. didn't find any of it that i like :(

just reached home and think that's all for today entry haha... getting more lazy ler.. haha.. how ya? ;P by the way.. everyone hope u can get to catch tonight Singapore Brainest Kids Season Finale. The kids really GREAT!!!!

Thanks my dear friend..

2004-08-09T20:15:00.000+08:00

WoOoo.....Let jeff here sings a Happy Birthday song.
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to Aiwei
happy birthday to you...... :D
yo aiwei it's ur birthday today as well as our country birthday.. haha.. another year older .. better take care of ur complexion and dun let those wrinkle take over that "almost" flawless face yo ;P Wish u all the best in ur promo exam and stay cute forever ;)

While also a great happy 39th bithday to singapore... i have no idea why this year i feel like this national day is so much better compared to previous years. Hmm.. o.O never mind... nice!!!

went to watch movie again with my sec sch classmate. We catched the show I Robot and i really love it especially the robot named sunny.. certain part of the show almost drive me to tears -.-" haha.. It was great to be back with my friends and i will never forget the days we laugh, cry and challenge during our secondary school ;) Love u guys... *hug* see ya soon again...

A friend is someone who can see the truth and pain in you even when you are fooling everyone else...

hmmm..

2004-08-09T02:37:00.000+08:00
HaHa... woke up in the afternoon today... fel so good after last night and a great sleep :D
when for a swim at jurong east today and then head down to my shop to get my stuff. when i reached my shop , was kinda of indecisive on whether to go for the party at sentosa :S but then i ended up watching movie at Jurong Point with my boss and his friend. We catched the Village at eleven and i think it's not a bad film. The director is clever to wrote a story like this. it's gonna be damn funny if in the end someone still dun understand what the story is telling.. lolx..
after the show, we walked back from jurong point and along the way we had lots of interesting chat. Hee Hee.. i always love chatting with my boss as he is so careful with what he said and he is a very intelligence person i ever met in my life. Sometime he can be in deep thought that u can't understand what he's up to. He will scrutinize u from head to toe and never fail to be defeated. After shower.... bedtime ....Zzzzzzzz..............

There are admirable potentialities in every human being. Believe in your strength and your youth. Learn to repeat endlessly to yourself, 'It all depends on me.'

Drunk.. Drunk .. Drunk..

2004-08-08T14:24:00.000+08:00
It was a busy day at work today.So many doing last min shopping for the coming party for this weekend. While most of them ask whether i'm going for any of them but i said no. "why?" they asked. i answered cos i dun like crowd. But when i knocked off at nine, i went to happy with one of my friend till late which is around three AM. It was my first time there and it is a very nice place to be with cos behind the dancing stage there's a lounge which is so great for ppl like me that dun like dancing to be there. While my friend are those active kind so they left me alone there drinking. was kinda of lousy in drinking that i got drunk. Sick.. while what next let's not talk bout it. :S

:O..Zzzz

2004-08-07T09:24:00.000+08:00
everyday is tiring for me... and today was the first time in my jc's day that i need to wake up so early due to the national's day performance.So tired and weak after what happen last night.. hai... the pain is still hurting!
It was kinda nice in the schol hall with my classmate singing national day songs as well as laughing together, at least i manage to get lifted up for that moment. haha.. the most funny things is that there's a crazy girl from the hawking house who screams and laugh like crazy... :P But my school ended with a boring econ lecture. at first was quite reluctant to attend it but my classmate 'intimidated' me...:S
After then, i went to esplanade for my project wo. had ice-cream with Desmond and ai wei before we went up to the library. we oreded the ultimate which include four scoop of ice-cream and three toppings.. haha.. so sinfullllll~~~~~ Let me recalled what the flavours and topping we oredered... hmm bailey's, vanila swiss almond, toffee cream and macadamia nut. toppings would be chocolate sauce, pistachio and roasted almond nut.. haha ... but when we eat i think we only manage to taste two flavours ... haha.
It's five when i left my project meeting and head for my work.i'm so damn hungry for the whole day cos didn't eat anything at all except ice-cream. Went to mox bar after my shop closed for the fasion show. Eeee... it had been so long since i went to these places and certainly feel so out of place :S
Arr.. Totally exhausted after everything and i went back with my boss by cab. It almost one in the morning when i reached home and guess what.. jeff slept on the floor without even bathing... Eek ;P

sorry

2004-08-06T00:44:00.000+08:00
i'm so incapable .... useless.... bad.... !!! who knows how i feel .. who knows? am i being selfish...? who can i love and who will know me really well... none did it... not for my ex.. not for my family nor my best friends... no..... am i that hard to understand...!!!????!!??? hai.... ComPlicated~~~~~~

what done is done ... i deserve it

2004-08-05T23:43:00.000+08:00
To Those that is reading my blog. pls mind my poor grammer and language skill.
Love ? what actually it about .. hurt? For me , everything come to a stop just now. I sat at the carpark crying hard on what happen just now... real hard.!!!!I'm such a weak jerk.. wimp... bastard...jeff! Sorry "v" .. i know u did all ur best but i dun want to carry on this. i dun want to let it become a one sided things. i'm really sorry .. i can't really express how i feel just now but to cry when i saw u. ~~~>.<~~~ Love is so complicated .. it bring one hurt more than happiness .. my ex brought the same thing and now i feel the same like what happen a seven months ago. hai... why is it always so tough... i need a rest now and room to breathe. Sorry!
To all guys out there... cherish ur own relationship and whatever u have now. don't overlook it cos it might just be someone right for you. I have did such a stupid mistake and it stabbed my heart real heart. Never follow a idiot like me!!!!
chatted with someone two days ago.. he said that one shouldn't keep things to himself and should open out and dun block it. Now i wanna tell u... i did.. i did my best .. dun say i didn't .. i opened out but eventually all back to square one! Still i prefer to be alone and reflect on everything that happened. it's tough to put on a strong front everytime and to held back tears and control my emotion. like what happen in the rehersal today.. i almost give way to my tears ... sorry..!!!! i will still carry on my life but with the broken heart pieceing itself again and again...! See that... ? how can one open out when he actually get the blow everynow and then while pieceing his heart... :c
i hate my useless dad that i have and the family that i in now. i can't complain much as i know that i might not be the only one that have such problem but just wanna say it all out today. " the scar is till burning and something keep digging and digging non-stop everytime. i can't control it. i left those memoriese aside but it haunt me. why..!! You have ur story . i have mine !! i useed to be in a house staying with others ppl family when i small. how on earth will such ppl know how a small kid like me feel that time , they think i'm a bastard. what i ate is leftover and was given food that i dislike the most . worse, i was always told to finish the food even though i vomit it out! Arr... i hate it... Step-mom that my dad had when i was primary one. everynight i must be able to literally translate those mathematical sum to chinese or else i will be canned and no sleep for me. i felt so scared in time reflecting all this things... it gave a certain among of weight that press onto my heart causing me to breath in difficulty" ~~~>.<~~~
to my closest friends that is reading this.. i misses the day when i was with u .. miss so much... full of laughter.... kenneth ... jason..... miss you two ... when we are in sec sch. Desmond as well... i know today u kinda worried for me.. thanks... hopefully i will be able to recover soon... good nite.. everyone....

As my heart got hurt again and again.. what i can do is to close up myself...

QA Rock~

2004-08-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

haha today was the first time i did my QA practical is so fun and intersting. I love those colour of precipitate that was formed as well as those colour changes like i did one that changes yellow to orange .. haha. We end our practical by burning one of the filter paper with a solution and nikel cobalt and got a greeny ash. o.O *interesting* Lolx.
kinda of boring this week cos there's no PE due to the leadership training course but as usual i still do my exercise at home, hundred and fifty crunches , hundred push up and dance till i perspire like hell... ;)

k k .. think that's all for today .. tomorrow still got band yo..!!!

Always remember others may hate you but those who hate you don't win unless you hate them. And then you destroy yourself.

2004-08-02T23:26:00.000+08:00
Hi CG , read ur blog and ya life isn't without ups and downs but Jeff is exhausted, very exhuasted."When One See Too Much or Take Too Much , It Will Love To Take Lesser And Be Blinded". Everyone have their own side of story. ya u might have been through it but it might not really the same as me. i had wrote in my previous blog that i had been brought up in a complicated family background with ppl that i hate to the core as well as ppl that i love and dear alot. While... this isn't the first time i happened to be so damn stress up but just happen that i have a blog so to put my feeling in it. I have lots of bad habit and one of it is to put on a strong front!! thanks....

i can't help it but to let my emotions overwhelm me~

2004-08-02T22:26:00.000+08:00
Arrr....it was so damn boring today. Suddenly, my past flashed in my brain as i got nothing to do in class.Probably recently i got my ex (D) sms and it seem like D wanna get me back. but the hurt D inflicted was too much for me to take that i have to be cold towards D. Sorry D .. think about what u had did to me for the time we were together.. and now what the F*** u still want. Leave me alone pls.... I have been given in during our relationship and now i'm exhasted. Give me a break pls.. .
Today in class, one of my classmate seemed to be extremely distracted by something and was very moody,worse she cried after chemistry lecture in class. I have no idea whether i played a part on pissing her but i would still like to say a "sorry" if i really did... i know u will be reading this. so pls forgive me.
Hai... the rehearsal today was yuck... it so draggy and the choir were so horrible. I think the band sounded zillion times better than them. :S While i was cursing the whole rehersal as i'm rushing to get home and finish up my homework but it just drag and drag..Ar.... !!
Went for dinner at BK with my bandmate but as usual i ate nothing..thus on the train back my gastric seemed to set in.. so painful..! Hm... i'm too emotion and think too much really hate myself for that. Farhan was taking the same bus as me back home and we talk some craps. While walking back to my home, my heart felt so pain thinking of lots of things that happen recently.. i took a quiet path to my house and started dropping tears.. ARrrr.. F*** my damn weakness ...!!! ~~~~>.<~~~~

worrying is like a rocky chair, it gives you something to do, but it doesn't get you anywhere.

Am I Stupid

2004-08-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

hmm... haven't been updating my blog for the past three days... kinda lazy :S .... but there's one things that rather stupid happened......
Last friday.. was a damn long day for me cos i got my band practice all the way till seven thiry in the night. Very disappointed cos we didn't play west side story.. haha.. the song is nice... further more, it's boring playing the marches and preparing for the national day performance :S
I'm extremely tired once i reached home but my aunt called my sister and i over to hers house.I did something stupid that night. Even myself felt silly for confessing to my crush about it. Hai... what on hell am i doing this week? there's so many things happen firstly these slut that got onto my nerve and now this crush that keep appearing in my mind... hai... never mind i think it just a crush and won't be an affection. Love is blind , that makes one hurt.
Arr....Crush Crush Crush... it just a crush... it common... Got to get back to study...tomorrow will be another long tiring day ... Sick~~~ there will be rehersal for national day :S Arrrr... So STUPID.. Good Nite ;S

Why Love When Love hurts; Why Love When Love Ends.....

WhO Am I?

2004-07-29T21:16:00.000+08:00

F*** .. today isn't my day. i'm so damn tired and stress down with my school work. Today end school extremely late due to extra math lecture class :S further more i know i screw up my chinese mock test today. it was so damn tough despite of studying it the night before :(
I really need a brreaakkk.!!!!!!!!!! all this school works really irk me. :S promos is about two months time from now ler.. what to do....!
Throw my bad aside and come online to update my blog!School... Tutorial.... seemed so scary to me now. Searching for blogskins for very long and yet none of it is nice. :S hai....
but i had a chat with my aunt... and guess what... i cried after i left my aunt's place ...~~~~>.<~~~~

Jeff is always a extreme useless boy that never able to control my own emotion when i'm alone. He was been brought up in a rather complicated family and a world that brought him endless pain.He wanna break free from it but always failed due to the soft side of him. He failed in his relationship as well.. hearthless creature out there toying his heart and left him to mend the burning scar in his heart. Who am I to them and why do i been brought into this kind of places... Why... Why....Why .. :'( before leaving my aunt's place, she said that noone believe i will excel in my studies , when other relative of mine knew that i've transfer from poly to JC they doubted me and cursed Jeff..... Jeff's eyes turn red at that point of time but i held back my tears ... i dun want to let my aunt knew i'm very hurt to hear that. My aunt had been my guardian for almost twelve years and noone come before her , not even my dad and TODAY what i heard was some BITCH saying my aunt stupid to help my dad taking care of my sister and me. I hate those BITCH to the core!!!!!! My aunt is worried .. my aunt was been humiliated!!! Those bitch u got to watch it .. i shall not let what u SAY comes true ... i will get into uni. make sure U BITCH will have to say SORRY to my dearest Aunt....

pardon me for those words use. My friend out there reading this... this is my blog.. and this is where i put my thoughts and feeling in... :D Good nite....~ it had been a night too much for me to take it.................

Love can heal the deepest wounds, but it can also create them....

2004-07-28T23:49:00.000+08:00

SpasTic~ Can See WhaT I'm EaTing? :P

It's A Happy DaY ~

2004-07-27T23:03:00.000+08:00
Arr.... getting up from my bed early in the morning was a damn tough job for me. Really hope i can sleep for another eight hours... hahaa ;)
Today is the SPA test and i didn't prepare much but just merely look through the pratical notes during lesson. I think i screw it up... it was kinda tough especially on the calculation section :( *headache*
My guardian came to my school today to collect my report card and about my punctuality in school. Luckily the Mrs CHAN don't really know how to speak well .. hahaa my aunt didn't reprimand me at all. While for my result, i got straight F hahhaa *shameless* . what to do ... Jc life is just so much for me to take. :'(
After then, i went back to my lesson. I skipped my mass PE today and sat with Zhan Li and Benedict talking craps. Don't really know them much needless to mention my whole class.... like stranger... haha.. probably need more time ba ;)
After math revision class , i went to Jurong Point with my group of classmate (Zhanli, Juliet, Charmaine, Hannah, Giffari, Tu Yuan and Juliet's friend).It was my first time going out with them and have dinner. somehow i feel like i'm back in my secondary school time. hee hee..! love u guys... u brought back my happy memories ;) AND of course after this dinner with them, My point of view on Tu yuan had change, though in time he talks craps but he is a very kind and good friend to be with. He stays at Redhill and willing to accompany us to jurong point , further more , only he is eating. BUT i feel extremely bad to see him eating alone as he came all the way here to accomapany us so i bought one small snack to eat with him;) TU yuan is a great friend to be with .. so to some of my classmate who dislike him, i would say that noone is perfect, mind their flaws and give them chance and don't just judge a book by it's cover ;)

"Friendship improves happiness and abates misery, by the doubling of our joy and the dividing of our grief."

2004-07-27T00:30:00.000+08:00

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your friends, who are in turn there for you.
You are content with your confortable life and
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My First Entry (,")

2004-07-26T13:06:00.000+08:00
this is my very first entry of the blog. thanks to my dearest friend Jason for introducing it to me. ;)

it had been very busy nowadays especailly during this second semster as my promotional exam is about two months time. *sharks* o.O Hopefully i can get to promote to JC2.
Today there's lots of homework to be done expecially General Paper.. hai...:S Alright then i think i better get moving and finish up my homework :(